Happy Birthday Jayden!!!  Wow, I can't believe your 5.  It was at this time, 9:30pm 5 years ago that I first saw you.  I remember that day like it was yesterday.  You have grown up so much over the years and I look at you now and you are starting to look like a little man.  It's hard to see your babies grow up but it's also exciting to see the adventures ahead.

Jayden is still liking school so far.  That's a good thing.  He had a Happy Birthday hat on all day today that his teacher gave him so he felt extra special today.  It was cute.  There is a little girl, Olivia, in his class that keeps telling him she thinks he's cute, lol.  He's already being the ladies man.  I'm in trouble, lol.

Making some progress with school.  I met with the principle and guidance teacher and have put a 504 in place.  I meet with the guidance counselor again tomorrow to go over that and make sure everyone is agreeable to the terms.  They also are putting into place a backup for the school health assistant should she has tons of kids in the clinic when Jayden arrives for his check ups so that she can focus on him and get him back to class or his lunch.  I hope things get a little more stream lined so that he feels more comfortable and normal.  This by far has been the hardest part of diabetes and the adjustment for all of us has been trying to say the least.  I know it will get easier but trusting others to take care of your child the way you do it a lot to ask of parents.  I know they will call for any little things but still, bad things can happen fast, especially with a child who's not very symptomatic.  I hope as he gets older it will get a little easier.  Someday he will know and understand all that his parents have done for him to be able to be just like everyone else.

My baby boy is growing up and I can say that I am very proud of him and happy that he has a very happy and healthy life so far and I plan to make sure he continues to live life to the fullest!

Today was day 2 of school and it was ok.  Jayden went off to class, no problem, I took Jonah to moms day out, then back to school for check #1.  The clinic aid still seems pretty confused and overwhelmed with everything.  Its amazing the things kids come into the clinic for, lol.  So Jayden's number before AM snack, 58.  I get the "What do I do now" look from her.  Well now we go to the protocal to get the sugar up.  He quickly downs a juice box of 15g and we wait 15 min.  Next check, 130, woohoo!  He sat and ate his sugar free jello and off to PE he went.

Lunch time he was at 90 so that was ok.  Had lunch and came back to be entered and off to enjoy the rest of his day. I went by his dr's office and vented some there too, almost in tears again. They probably tought I was nutty but oh well.  I broke down and had a good cry in the car on the way to work.  I hope this gets easier soon.

I just don't know how all of us parents do this.  It is so hard.  I wish I couldmake it go away.  I really hate diabetes!

The day has arrived and today my son Jayden is off to Kindergarten.  I am still up at midnight since I am so nervous about his first day and can't sleep.  I know they have to grow up but this is a huge milestone.  It means my little boy is getting older and away from me more and more.  It's hard to see them go through these stages but I know that they have to.  In many ways its fun to see all the changes year after year.

One of my bigger fears is the school handling his diabetes.  Of course I don't expect to leave the school tomorrow as I will be helping the clinic aid to know what to do and training her in her daily care of my son.  These first 2 weeks are going to be trying.  I hope she catches on quick and that she becomes comfortable soon.  The 4 hour meeting we had last Friday was intense and she look absolutely petrified as the thought of having my son in her care everyday.  I get it, I'm just as frightened too.

So, like many other mommas out there, I will probably be shedding a few tears as her walks into the classroom for the first time as a big boy.  Of course there will be many pictures and video : )  I will post some of those later.  These are the moments that you want to remember the rest of your life.  I am very proud of the young man that he is becoming.

Well, it is late and I have a lot to do in the morning to prepare for his big day!  Wish me luck in surviving Jayden's first day as a kindergartner!

I have decided to start a blog about my son Jayden.  I have wanted to ever sense he was diagnosed on Jan 30, 2009.  It has been a whirlwind of events since then but we are living with diabetes.  So I guess I'll start with his diagnosis.

It all began when we were on a trip to visit my sister and family in Lexington, KY.  Those few days visiting, my son was out of control and at his worst behavior ever.  Then I noticed he was drinking liquids like crazy and that night he woke up every 1 1/2 hours totally drenched through his diaper and screaming for more milk.  In my heart I knew something was terribly wrong and my first thought was diabetes : (  This being that my husband and I are both Physical Therapist Assistants so the medical background helps.

First thing I did was make an appt with his pediatrician when we got back.  My mom took him in since i had to work at the office.  I remember that call from the nurse that day.  "Hello, are you Jayden's mom?  We just took his sugar and it's over 300 and our meter doesn't read higher than that.  We have the endocrinologist on the other line and you have an appt in an hour and you and your husband need to be there."  i didn't know what to say.  I started to cry.  This can't be happening, not to my son.  You would do anything to protect your child.  What did we do, why him?

That was the most intense several hours at a dr's office.  His sugar was in the 400's when we got there.  We had so much information thrown at us and then we were supposed to take this child home and keep him alive.  We were freaked out to say the least.  How were we supposed to do this?  This can't be happening.  But we survived the first year on injections and his numbers we all over the place.  Thank God for the incredible staff at his endocrinology office and their support.

July of 2010 we tried him on an insulin pump.  We have the Animas One Touch Ping.  The first few months were complete torture.  Round the clock checking every 3 hours and constant texting to his incredible nurse Heather who was there every step of the way and at any time day or night.  Once we got him more stabilized and many adjustments later to his pump, it has been a blessing.  It has allowed our son to be more normal and enjoy most anything he wants, as long as I know the carbs in it, lol. That's what I always say.  If I know the carbs, he can have it!  That alone is one of the most frustrating things, eating out and most all restaurants don't have nutritional information to give you.  It is a guessing game many times and many adjustments if it's not quite right.

Over the past few years of living with diabetes we have learned a lot and grown together as a family.  It is a daily struggle but we take it one day at a time.  Jayden is getting ready to start Kindergarten on Monday and so the adventure continues : )